Ahuviya Harel

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Ahuviya Harel
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Age	30
Born	12 August, 1985 Woodbury, New Jersey
Residence	No fixed abode
Occupation	None
Web Presences	Original DA (defunct) Current Facebook Current DA

Ahuviya Harel, also known as ADF-Fuensalida (born Phillip V. Haskins-Delici, currently known as Isabel Rosa Araujo and, for the purposes of this article, simply ADF), has enjoyed attention as a lolcow since he first came to the internet's attention in 2008. He grew up on the East Coast of the United States and originally enjoyed the carefree life of a gay college student and anime appreciator. A series of setbacks in his personal life led him to seek solace in cosplaying, and by the middle of 2009 he had established a pattern of behaviour whereby he would adopt the attributes of the characters he cosplayed, in an attempt to bring meaning and motivation into his directionless life. Dressing up as Sakura from Naruto led him to realise he was in fact a woman, and China from Axis Powers Hetalia turned him into a Communist overnight. This all took place against a backdrop of constant conflict with his mother, whom he lived with and occasionally beat up. By 2011 he was finding his domestic situation intolerable, and left home to stay with a succession of leftists and LGBT persons in Philadelphia, each time getting thrown out when they got sick of him. Having exhausted all of his support on the East Coast, he went West in 2012. Unfortunately this did not lead to an improvement in his situation, as his new acquaintances were no more tolerant of him than the ones he left behind. Today he divides his time between Oregon and California, sleeping under a wide variety of bridges. Incurably narcissistic, ADF has written about himself at length, allowing the conscientious reader to build up a detailed, albeit heavily biased, picture of his life. Below is the Lolcow Wiki's attempt to disentangle the truth of ADF's life from his self-mythologising.

Names

ADF has frequently changed his name to reflect the various personas he has adopted over the years. To his followers, trolls and general well-wishers, however, he'll always be known simply as ADF. He was born Phillip Vincent Haskins-DeLici on 12th August 1985, DeLici being his father's surname and Haskins his mother's. His father is of Italian extraction and not, as ADF is fond of claiming, Puerto Rican. From early 2007 to mid-2011, his main outlet on the internet was DeviantArt, where he posted under the name of ADF-Fuensalida, this being the name of a military installation of the Australatina Defence Forces, the armed forces of his imaginary Latino LGBT paradise.

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Note the crude Photoshop job on the bottom fridge magnet.

From some unknown point in the middle 2000s up to mid-2010 ADF's persona centred around his claimed latino heritage (after that it was gradually edged out, for the time being, by his identity as transgender). As a result, he claimed his real name was Felipe Delicias Harel, this presumably being an attempt to hispanicize "Phillip DeLici." He was insistent this was the name on his birth certificate: he went so far as to post an altered version of the text of the court order confirming his name change, which was entirely accurate save for that Felipe Delicias appeared instead of Phillip Haskins-DeLici. The origin of "Harel" was never explained but is probably a reference to the Harel Brigade, a prominent Israeli military formation. He signed his posts with this name on the ADF-Fuensalida account. Far prior to coming out as transgender he also referred to himself as "Felicia," although this appeared to spring from his desire to try on feminine mannerisms as part of his self-identity as a male homosexual rather than from any transgender impulses.

ADF came out as transgender on 13th January 2010, and accompanied this announcement with the news that he had changed his name to Ahuviya Harel. This new name was to reflect his new female identity, as well as the fascination with Judaism he was entertaining at the time. He explained the name as follows:

“

Ahuviya means Loved by God. Harel (My Surname) means Mountain of God. Therefore I am a Loved Mountian of God.

”

He would frequently call himself "Sasuke" when Sasuke was his main cosplay, and then "Sakura" when he switched to that one.

ADF officially changed his name to Ahuviya Rotem Harel on 7th May 2010. "Rotem" also lacks an official explanation, but many have noted there is an Israeli desert plant of that name. As of 2015 he still refers to himself Ahuviya Harel, although he has changed his middle name {a number of} times. {Somebody can expand on this hopefully}. As of early 2015 he goes by Ahuviya Harel Araujo, the new surname a reference to Gwen Araujo, a transgender person who was tragically murdered in 2002.

Early life, 1985-2005

In a DeviantArt Journal of December 2009 ADF described his background as follows:

I was born in Woodbury, New Jersey on 12 August 1985. I currently live in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania (namely in the Northeast Philadelphia Area, where all the taxpayers get raped in the ass) . My Ethnic Background is of mixed race, I am Puerto Rican on my father's side and German/Jewish on my Mother's side. My Mother's ancestors came from Israel before then, a part of Germany what used to be knowned as Konigsberg, East Prussia (Now Kaliningrad, Russia) and My Father and family is From Bayamon, Puerto Rico. My Parents have been divorced since 1994 and I have not had contact with my Father since 2001, due to Sexual, Physical, and Psychological Abuse at his hands.

He mentioned the "Astigmatism" he felt growing up as the child of a divorce.

{This definitely needs to be expanded: obviously his father denies the allegations.}

Gay Weeaboo Phase, 2005-2008

College, Employment, Location

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"Sasuke's October Surprise"

ADF enrolled at Gloucester County College, New Jersey, sometime in 2005. He majored in Computer Graphics. He generated some notoriety in August 2008, when he drew the famous picture of Sasuke Uchiha from Naruto shooting John McCain in the head. He showed it around at the college's anime club, and possibly other places, and one viewer was so concerned by it that they alerted the authorities. The New Jersey state police paid ADF a visit, but they decided not to pursue the matter. Having survived this incident unscathed, ADF ultimately dropped out a few months later, in November 2008. He cited unspecific "stress" as the reason. By November he had managed to fall out with all of his college friends (see below), which was probably the real reason.

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"Cosplaying Jennifer Lopez" at work, 2004.

In November 2008 he relocated from New Jersey to Philadelphia, Pennsylvania: whether this was a result of his leaving college is unclear. He lived with his mother in both locations, so presumably she would have been the main force behind the decision to move. The government provided them with financial assistance for the rent of their new home. His mother had some unspecified source of income (disability payments, some have suggested) and together they paid for rent, utilities etc. The ratio of their contributions is unknown.

Since around 2002 ADF had been employed at Wawa, a chain of East Coast convenience stores. He never went into much detail about this aspect of his life in this period, but there appears to have been some tension between him and his colleagues. It has been suggested several times that he originally obtained the job through some sort of government scheme to help people with mild mental disabilities into work, and it was this factor which protected him from being fired for so long, but unfortunately no solid corroboration has yet arisen. He quit the location he originally worked at and moved to a new one in August 2008.

Personal Life and Relationships

Sexuality

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ADF/BSDM, c. 2007

ADF apparently regarded himself as bisexual from around 2002. He came out as gay in a DeviantArt journal post of 13th December 2007. He came out to this mother in March 2008 by writing her a letter, after the failure of his plan to gently make her realise through leaving yaoi fanart, bondage apparel, etc. around the house. He feared his mother, being a Christian, would take the news poorly and disown him, but he vowed:

“

I WILL NOT LET IT HAPPEN AND NOT WITHOUT A DAMN FIGHT IF IT COMES TO THAT!!! I don't care if she calls the cops on me and I'm dragged out of my own home in handcuffs!

”

Fortunately for her safety, his mother appeared to take the news well. The letter he wrote to her has unfortunately been lost to posterity: a later reference to it implied that it contained a list of conditions ADF required his mother to comply with for him to feel truly accepted by her.

In this period ADF showed a strong fixation with BDSM: he owned several items of bondage gear, and he caused his associates great vexation by regularly wearing them in public (see the left-hand picture below, for example).

Acquaintances

At college, ADF was a member of the anime club and gay/straight alliance. These seem to have been his only avenues for socialising. ADF somehow managed to be appointed president of the gay/straight alliance, where he carried out his duties in a derelict manner.

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ADF (L), Canis (R), c. 2007

ADF's chief male acquaintance of the period (quite possibly his only one) was "Dusty," aka "Canis," a fellow member of the anime club and gay/straight alliance. ADF portrayed the two of them as being very close friends: in March 2008 he alleged that that Canis had become his boyfriend, and that they had gone on a "yaoi adventure" together. Sadly the two of them fell out in August of that year, and Canis took the opportunity to present his side of the story. He depicted ADF as somebody who was unable to function socially and who engaged constantly in embarrassing behaviors. He claimed that he had only befriended ADF out of a mixture of pity for him, and concern for his well-being on campus. He of course denied that they had ever been in a relationship. He claimed that ADF would frequently wear bondage gear around campus (for which there is photographic proof), and that ADF would tell people that Canis was his "master," which caused Canis considerable embarrassment. ADF also apparently shat himself at some point. Despite all this, Canis took a fairly circumspect view of ADF, criticising him heavily but attributing the worst of his behavior to his Asperger Syndrome. He later sent ADF an email containing the following quote:

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J'Accuse, par Canis

“

Asberger's, whether you like it or not, is a disability. Watching what you're doing is like watching a man with one leg trying to walk unaided. It's uncomfortable, it hurts us, and the more you insist you don't need help, the less we sympathize when you do a face-plant.

”

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ADF and Kourine, c. 2007

More positively, he enjoyed a friendship with "Corrine," who went by "Kourine" on DeviantArt. ADF's posts of 2007-2008 show a very deep, quasi-sexual fixation with her. He referenced her constantly and regularly drew her anime original character (also called "Kourine," confusingly) in sexual and BDSM-type situations, often with ADF's anime alter-ego characters. He would often make posts "as" Kourine (character), causing on-lookers to wonder if Kourine (person) was just some figment of his imagination. He would even sometimes sign his posts as "Kourine." This fixation began when ADF considered himself bisexual, and his coming out as gay did nothing to slow it down. Despite all this, Kourine seems to have genuinely been friends with ADF at one point. They shared an interest in anime, yaoi, etc., and they collaborated on various drawings.

August 2008, again, marked the point when they fell out. Kourine, like Canis, had become increasingly exasperated with ADF's real-life behaviour. Additionally, they were coming to blows over art-related issues. Kourine, being very much of the traditional DeviantArt mindset, was protective of her Original Characters and anxious that they be Not Stolen by others. ADF's cavalier use of her characters annoyed her, not to mention that he frequently drew them in sexual situations with his own characters, something she expressed her discomfort with. It should be noted that Kourine was fairly lolcow-ish herself, and her attacks on ADF focused on, in retrospect, highly tedious and pedantic issues around who had permission to draw what characters in what situations, etc. His unwholesome behaviour towards her in real life, which seems like a much better position to attack from, was largely ignored.

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ADF's ED article caused him some minor grief from random weens, and he drew this in response.

Much of this art-related drama played out on DeviantArt, both ADF and Kourine posting long blasts against each other on their journals. Their conflict attracted some external attention, and Kourine found an ally in user ZabuKawaii, who got stuck in the fighting on Kourine's side. ADF's original Encyclopaedia Dramatica article was created at around this time, and ZabuKawaii was probably the creator and main contributor.

On 5th August 2008 Kourine posted a long denunciation of ADF on her DeviantArt journal, which contained several notable items:

"He is constantly muttering on about saying basically: If you are against me in anyway, you are either Homophobic and/or Republican."

"He is all 100% American, so don't let his lies fool you. He goes to same college I go to, and he is very much NOT on Canadian soil.Also, he has no accent guys. If you seen his video on YT about him dressed up in his "attire" and having an accent that is suppose to be Mexican or Scottish while he is Canadian, that is all a lie."

"AND DON'T GIVE ME THAT "So people hate me when I came out of the closet" or that Ass-whatever syndrome, or even that "communication" business. THEY HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS!!"

On 7th December 2008 ADF claimed that Kourine had been his girlfriend at some indeterminate point, and it was her who made him realise he was uninterested sexually in women. This actually doesn't seem to have been intended as an indirect insult.

ADF on the Internet

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A good example of ADF's art of the period, hitting all the key features except Latino culture.

ADF's main outlet of the time was popular art website DeviantArt. He ran his page in the sort of manner which made the website such a popular location for lolcow watchers: he would delete any comments critical of him and frequently got embroiled in drama with other users of the site. He used the journal page of his DeviantArt profile essentially as a blog, and this is where most of the insights into his life in this period come from.

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Sexy art of Kourine (wearing the flag of Australatina).

He frequently uploaded art onto his DeviantArt. His characteristic drawing style was fully formed by then: anime-type characters, badly coloured in with markers. He mixed fanart and original art, but his fixations on pretty anime guys, military uniforms and progressive political causes were constant features. He collaborated with Kourine on a comic about yaoi-loving high school girls (or something in that area) that doesn't appear to have progressed beyond the planning stage.

DeviantArt was essentially his sole outlet on the internet: he had an account on yaoi fanart website YGallery that was banned for some now-obscure reason. Apart from a small argument with Canis nothing notable seems to have taken place there.

ADF's Idea of Himself

As mentioned above, ADF at that time regarded himself as a gay man. He voiced regular appreciation for gay rights causes, yaoi anime and various BDSM practices. He made frequent reference to his supposed Latino ancestry, and Latino topics appeared regularly in his art. Many of his drawings revolved around the setting of "Australatina," a Latino-majority county of his own creation located somewhere north-west of the United States. He envisaged it as a land where gay rights were valued and enemies dealt with in a harsh, Israel-style fashion (see below).

His political views were much milder than they would become, and he expressed strong support for Barack Obama's 2008 presidential campaign. His posts were full of scattered passing shots at Republicans, Christian fundamentalists, etc. Despite his overall tendency to lean centre-left by American standards, he also frequently stated his approval for Israel, citing its relatively LGBT-friendly position as well as its uncompromising treatment of the Palestinians, as well as its external enemies, which he viewed as a model for dealing with the haters in his life.

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Trenchant political commentary.

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ADF's room, c. 2009

His first political statement that could be considered radical appears to have been a DeviantArt journal post of 11th November 2008, in response to the controversy over California Proposition 8 then on-going, where he voiced support for "gay nationalism" and stated:

Now, I personally do not condone terrorism, but I have the common sense to understand how it can be justified. If the California GLBT community is smart enough if they want to end the injustice done to them by the evangelical Christians who voted for Proposition 8. They (the GLBT Community of California) will start learning how to start a serious series of riots, use guns, and build bombs, and before long -- THEY will start shooting Prop 8 supporters, White of Black. Those gays may even be bold enough to blow up public transport buses one day too. Or even suicide bomb the churches they backed Prop 8.

He drew heavy inspiration from Sasuke Uchiha, a character from the anime Naruto known for his ninja skills and dark, edgy personality. ADF expressly cited Sasuke as a role model on numerous occasions, and even signed some of his posts as "Sasuke" rather than "Felipe" (the name he used at the time). His interest in the character at this time was, however, not the unhealthy obsession it would later become.

At this stage he was already beginning to display paranoid traits: he set his location as Vancouver, Canada, fearing that "white supremacists and right-wing Christians" would attempt to harm him IRL over his strident political/LGBT advocacy.

He claimed to have been diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome on several occasions. As has been seen, both Kourine and Canis agreed with this assessment: whether they were merely following his impliedly frequent mentions of it or they had some third-party confirmation is unclear. However by the end of 2010 ADF had reputed the diagnosis and claimed he was merely "emotionally disturbed."

Cosplay phase, 2009-2011

ADF was in at a low point in his life when 2009 rolled around. He had dropped out of college and become estranged from the people who had formerly been his closest friends. He sought a new source of inspiration and motivation in his life, and found it in his increasingly obsessive fixation on cosplaying anime characters. Parallel to this, he redoubled his efforts to find a new love interest.

January-April 2009 - Self-Improvement

Feeling stuck in a rut, ADF decided to embark on an extensive program of self-improvement. Closing shots in his feud with Kourine took place at the start of 2009, and her jibes about his weight appear to have particularly stung him. He boldly set out his intentions for the new year:

The Mission I Have Accepted and will Endeavor Greatly to Carry Out

1) To Cosplay The Characters I Fucking Want from Naruto

2) To Lose 45 Pounds over the course next 6 months to reach 167 pounds!

3) Have Fun, and don't give a FUCK what the critics who hate you say!

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ADF shaping up for his Sasuke cosplay.

He detailed the characters he wished to cosplay (seven characters from Naruto), and what this would all afford - between $2000 and $2,500, by his calculation. It should be noted that, at this stage, ADF did not seem to regard cosplaying as an essential component of his self-image, as it would later become. It was a crucial ambition, but only in the sense that dressing up as anime people would signify a culmination of his desire to lose weight and, probably, to re-kindle his love for anime after his fallout with Kourine.

He went into more detail about his weight-loss goal in another post. Quoth he:

Currently, I weigh about 212 pounds (96.4 Kilograms) , I want to go down to 167 pounds (75.9 Kilograms) . That's right, I need to lose 45 pounds (20.5 kg) because I am now getting tried of being overweight, simple as that. It is bothering me to the point I'm starting to break down in tears. Don't get me wrong, I usually have pretty positive self-esteem about myself. But this change is needed more than just over cosplaying...it's also to better my chances of meeting my ideal Bishie Boyfriend I hope to have holding into my arms one day in the future.

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The Sasuke Diet, in graphical form.

He planned to lose weight by taking up rollerskating and by adopting a vegetarian diet.

Despite intending to cosplay seven Naruto characters, ADF was overwhelmingly fixated on just one of them: Sasuke Uchiha, the cool loner. He increasingly framed his weight-loss plan as a plan to look more like Sasuke, not just to cosplay as him, and came to refer to it as the "Sasuke Diet." He cut candy out of his diet because, apparently, Sasuke abhors candy. Elsewhere, he posted about his desire to act more like Sasuke by adopting certain of his mannerisms. He even began to sign his posts as "Sasuke Uchiha." Updates on his weight-loss attempt were posted very frequently.

Meanwhile, he continued to rant about Proposition 8 and associated issues. On 31st March he clarified his current religious status, describing himself as an "agnostic atheist."

On 17th April ADF declared "mission accomplished," announcing that he had achieved his target weight. This would allow stage 2 of his plan to begin: actually beginning to get the cosplay items together.

May-August 2009 - The Sweetheart Search Begins

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ADF as Sasuke.

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ADF's view of his ideal boyfriend (with the features of Naruto, of course).

The long-awaited Sasuke costume arrived sometime around the start of May. Purchasing it required the acquiescence of his mother, as he was dependent on her credit card to actually carry out the transaction. The idea seems to have been that she would pay for the cosplay, and he would then pay her back in instalments. Assuming his estimates from earlier in the year are correct, this costume set him (his mother, i.e.) back around $600. He took photos of himself wearing the costume as soon as it arrived, and pontificated on his feelings about it at some length:

“

Sasuke Uchiha is an awesome role model to look up and to have to help a goal. I am very excited about my cosplay, and its only a natural and I can't hold it in sometimes. It's human nature... I know who I am --- I happy I got to where I got because Sasuke motivated me to where I got today. That would've not been possible otherwise.

”

“

I really believe that I am rather obsessed with Sasuke Uchiha, but unfortunately it may be to the point I actually want to BECOME Sasuke Uchiha --- that is the part that is getting some people all upset with me.

”

Having so far enjoyed constant success in his personal goals, ADF began to look outside of himself, and decided to embark upon a Love Quest (his own words!) - to find the Naruto to his Sasuke. He set out his goals for a love interest in early July:

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"White, Hispanic and/or Asian"

I want to find a Male Dobe, Ages ranging 19-26 (White, Hispanic and/or Asian) , Loves Naruto and can cosplay Naruto and give this lonely Sasuke-teme a lot of individual love and attention I crave as an Uchiha....So No Multiple partners BS or I'll Chidori that loser's ass!Yeah, that was a Male seeking Male personal you just read...I can't stand being single anymore.

He placed considerable importance on the need for his future boyfriend to be able to cosplay Naruto, going to far as to create a DeviantArt page where he and his future boyfriend would post their cosplay pictures. Moreover, he stated that his sweetheart should not just cosplay Naruto, but should also be like Naruto in personality:

“

A boyfriend who is like Naruto Uzumaki, one that can quickly trust me, love me, and has a use-it-or-lose-it attitude towards life.

”

We can see from this that ADF's mental confusion between cosplaying characters and actually being those characters was already apparent at this early stage.

ADF's first attraction location, the Philadelphia gay pride parade, proved fruitless. He did not drink at the time, claiming that "my Alcoholic father, ruined alcohol for me -- and my attitude towards it." Despite this, by the middle of July he was attending local gay bars in search of his future Naruto boyfriend. He made several trips, all unsuccessful.

On the 3rd July ADF claimed that his workplace had fired an employee for taking unannounced time off work to attend to a sudden medical emergency. This incident caused him to ruminate on matters of life and death, and he stated that:

“

If my Mother dies, I would end up homeless on the streets...

”

Fortunately for ADF, he would later be able to achieve homelessness on the streets without his mother needing to die in the process.

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ADF(L), John (R)

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More Sasuke.

Towards the end of July, ADF appeared to have made a breakthrough in his love quest: he met "John," a freelance photographer in the Philadelphia area who specialised in gay subject-matter. They met so that John could take some photos of ADF, and after this meeting ADF was already describing John as "First Candidate for who will be my Naruto Uzumaki!" John's feelings for ADF at this point are unclear. John came into ADF's life at a fortunate time, for his relationship with his mother was beginning to deteriorate, as he explained in a post dated 1st August, which deserves to be quoted at some length:

"The very nature of the Dobe Search has taken on a rather urgent nature. There is now an emergency need for future residency with a Dobe...

sigh

This is not going to happen next week, next month or a couple of months from now -- This is more likely to occur in 2010, possibly in Summer or Fall 2010 -- I may have to move out from my Mother's place.

Why? You ask, I have a couple of reasons...

1) My Mother is violating the terms of my Coming Out Letter of 25 March 2008. For some of you watched me back when, this was a BIG issue -- I was on a war footing if she did not accept me then.

She is violating this by discouraging me into not finding a guy -- this is a violation of my civil rights, simple as that --- and FUCK her motherly concerns about my safety, She is getting way too over-protective I am almost 24 years old and can handle myself pretty well on the streets of Philadelphia.

...and much better than herself too in certain respects...

2) My Mother is also in violation of the terms of the same above-mentioned Coming Out Letter of 25 March 2008 by making assumptions that I am not capable of certain things or abilities due to the fact I have Asperger Syndrome... (This also ties in with Reason 1 to an extent, but I am counting Two Violations as Two Violations)

This is going to cause serious clashes and fighting -- if it has not already in certain episodes in the past I have had with her, it will definitely worsen in the future.

Things are okay and stable for right now -- but it will deteriorate as time passes into the future...

To put it a little more simply, my future depends on finding that Dobe, I have at least a year to do so or I'll risk being in an abusive, exploitative, and potentially oppressive situation if I continue to live with my Mother."

On 7th August non-Sasuke cosplays got a mention for the first time in months, ADF mentioning that he was beginning "prep work for cosplaying Sakura." Sakura, another Naruto character, is the most prominent female character in the series. He set a new weight goal of 145-150 lbs for this cosplay.

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ADF's idealised version of events.

ADF was "almost attacked" as he walked home from work by "a couple of 20-something-year old African-American males" on 17th August: they "called me a 'faggot' and threw a couple of rocks at me." Fortunately he was unharmed, and he later worked through his feelings about the incident by drawing a wish-fulfillment version of the attack where he got the upper hand on his assailants. He expressed his desire to move to a different, safer, Wawa location, and observed:

“

What is it with Blacks and Homophobia? 45-50 years ago they had a Civil Rights battle, What the fuck.

”

Kourine re-surfaced at the end of August, making a weak attempt to troll ADF. He attributed this to her being "sexually and emotionally frustrated" towards him.

September-December 2009 - ADF Beats Up his Mother

ADF was considerably more quiet in the latter third of the year, posting much less frequently than before.

He alluded to tensions with his mother over the amount of money he was spending on cosplay on the 15th September, claiming that he "threatened Something Drastic" in order to obtain some more Sasuke cosplay items. He did not state how much these items cost. "Maybe next time I'll threaten World War III, Without Nukes, when I Crossplay Sakura Haruno," he wondered.

His job transfer went through on the 21st October. His new workplace was located close to a police station, which he described as an "epic security win!" A few days earlier, he posted another cryptic message, this one seemingly aimed at John:

"NARUTO...YOU JUST FORCED ME TO CONFESS OUR BONDS

I love you

Do Not give up

I believe in you (though I will not admit you otherwise, Dobe)

I know you love me as much as You love Sai and SakuraYou wouldn't give up on Sasuke now, wouldn't you?

I know times are tough, believe me, 30+ days with the job transfer -- still waiting on that fucking transfer -- I am barely making anything...That will change soon, I hope

Stay strong, For Sakura, For Sai,And Sasuke -- Don't give up on Sasuke

You have given me so much...I love and care about you."

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ADF had a fetish for prison uniforms, as a side-line to his anime cosplaying. Sadly the pictures are difficult to date accurately, although one is probably thematically appropriate at this point.

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ADF admits to punching his mother.

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ADF looks back on his record of domestic violence, sometime in 2010-11.

Tensions between ADF and his mother over money continued to mount. He admitted to punching her on the 21st November, in a post he quickly deleted (but not quickly enough, for an intrepid follower was able to take a screenshot in time), and further "fighting" took place on the 26th November.

The amount of stress in his life led ADF to bring forward the Sakura cosplay to January 2010. He explained his reasons on 28th November:

“

Just because, I need the escape of being the opposite gender -- Its more than cosplay to me as this point - Pretty much since High School -- I have desired to know what would look like/feel like as a female.

”

He mentioned his transgender feelings for the first time shortly after this:

“

Did You Know I Am Also Adrogynous Too That Means I Identify with both Male and Female genders, so I am transgendered and did you know I am crossplaying Sakura Haruno next month

”

Ahuviya Harel made her first appearance on 21st December, described by ADF as "a Female Persona I answer to (which I will be creating into an OC of my female self soon)"

His conflict with his mother appears to have come to a head shortly before Christmas, as he posted on 22nd December that he had agreed a timeline with her for his moving out. He planned to be completely gone by 30th June, 2011. John supported ADF in this endeavour, although not to the extent of suggesting that ADF move in with him.

Despite this, relations with John appeared to be improving: ADF suggested that they had had sex on the 12th December. He expressed his hopes that John would cosplay Naruto for him early in the new year.

ADF spent Christmas and new year alone in Philadelphia, his mother spending the holiday elsewhere with her boyfriend.

January-April 2010 - More Conflict

ADF began the new year with another hostile encounter with black people, this time a mugger. ADF claimed to have got the best of the encounter, disarming his assailant and knocking him unconscious, "Sasuke Uchiha style."

He spent another $570 on cosplay items in January (the Sakura costume, a Naruto costume and a new Sasuke costume) making the total amount spent so far somewhere around $1,200.

Ahuviya Harel was introduced and explained in detail on the 13th January. His explanation for the name, in full:

Recently, I decided no longer to Display my Gender on DA Profile -- I no longer wish to be pigeon-holed into being either Male or Female

That's Right, I am Transgendered.For some of you, I already told you that I am gay, but I also Transgendered/Androgyne

Why Ahuviya?

Ahuviya is Gender-neutral, it can be either Male or Female, given the fluidity on my Gender Identity, it's perfect for me.

What Nationality is Ahuviya Harel? It sounds very pretty

Its Hebrew That's Right, as in ISRAEL! Ahuviya means Loved by God

Harel (My Surname) means Mountain of God

Therefore I am a Loved Mountian of God

I picked Ahuviya because I do not have to suffix-around With Felipe/Felicia anymore, And I do not want treated like

Israeli? Ah Ha, That's Why You are so Stubborn, You Sasuke-teme!--

Hn, Jews, just like the Uchiha, are stubborn people...BUT...Gotta give Credit for Israel existing for over 60 years, in a neighborhood that pretty much hates Israel's guts, the Middle East

Are You Jewish?

Should That Matter to You? Whether or Not I am Christian, Jewish, or Agnostic/Atheist?Actually, to be honest, I might consider Judaism, I hope to find a Synagogue accepting of LGBT People someday

Do You Speak Hebrew

I speak a couple basic words, and know the Hebrew Alphabet, I will be learning Hebrew this Year as one of my New Year's Resolutions, Along with getting that Long List of Cosplay Stuff done, spending more time with [John] (My Dobe) , taking up Marital Arts Lessons (Like Aikido or Krav Maga) , Upgrading to Aggressive Inline Skates, and sticking to my Vegetarian/Borderline Vegan Diet, and keeping fit all around

Oh Yeah, and finishing up Forgotten Lillies (If I had time for everything, Goddammit!)

Uh, Ahuviya, W-What-What About the Other Names You Make Us Call You by?

I Still Answer to the Following Name (In Case my Hebrew Name too over your head)Sasuke Uchiha (Because You Can't Resist that Emo Bastard)Sakura Haruno -- Trust me, it'll stick awhile after I unveil my Sakura Cosplay...

What About Akihito/Aki , Felipe, and Felicia? Since Akihito/Aki and Felicia/Felipe was already used up by my characters -- I decided to steer away from Christian and Japanese Names (With the exception of Sasuke)

Real life was unfortunately beginning to catch up with him, however. By the end of January he was, by his own admission, $1,600 in debt, and "almost 4 Months behind on my Board payments and other expenses." He despaired of paying off these debts on the $8.50/hour he was receiving at Wawa (working between 25-25 hours per week), and planned to quit that job to find a better-paying one elsewhere.

On a lighter note, the Sakura cosplay arrived soon after. He wore this cosplay very frequently and rather forgot about his Sasuke outfit. The month was closed out by John's birthday, and ADF took the opportunity to clarify the nature of their relationship:

I know we have been only together for 6 months now, but He really means a lot to me and He has done a World of Good to empower me too.I love John a lotNotice, I did not say 'Naruto' or 'Dobe' . I want you guys to know him by his real name, not the SasuNaru/NaruSasu Pet Names we call each other.I recently requested off for Valentine's Day Weekend, I want to use that opportunity to really get to know him more and John to get to know Me more...He really respects me a lot, and So I do with himHe is the first serious relationship I've had, where I am treated as an equal, and dually respectedI want John and I to be togetherI really see us living together as a couple in hia apartment someday, -- it may be next year, I don't know -- and we do each other's part to keep up the apartment, cook, and overall have fun.Hell, Someday...We might get married. He can be the 'Husband. and I can be the 'Wife' .You can imagine, If I looked beautiful as Sakura Haruno, How beautiful I would look in a wedding dress.So Wish John (my Naruto) a Happy Birthday.

ADF formally came out as transgender on 20th February, and immediately looked towards beginning hormone treatment as soon as possible. He began treating Ahuviya Harel as his "real" name at this point, replacing Felipe.} As to how this might affect his relationship with John, he commented:

“

I told him about it not too long ago. I hope He does remain by my side through this time and beyond. I love him, and He respects me a lot. I am very sure He will support me, even if I decide to go through with a sex reassignment operation."

”

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The specific picture he showed her.

As for his mother:

“

I am not officially out about being transgendered to my Mother. However, its not like I am trying to hide it at all. Right now, I am cosplaying Sakura Haruno around the house, lipstick, makeup, and all. As an icebreaker, I last night, did give a picture of myself dressed up as Sakura to her. I do not see any real opposition to me cosplaying Sakura in front of her form her reaction to that photograph.

”

He came out to his mother a couple weeks later, and she apparently took it well:

“

My Mom is Thrilled to have a Daughter, Who is Still Her Son, and Has Pink Hair.

”

ADF continued his self-transformation by deciding to try out Judaism, as he had suggested he would in the "Ahuviya Harel" post above. He found a local reformed synagogue and observed Passover there.

Despite these positive changes, all was not well with ADF's life. He was finding his mother's house increasingly intolerable: he was running out of space in his room and his "noisy as fuck African American neighbours" were irritating him. While his mother had accepted his transgender status, the tension between them over money was still subsisting. He continued to owe her "a significant amount of money," his debt at this point being $1,300, and he felt considerable angst over her alleged expectation that he be "the fucking breadwinner." This all resulted in "been periodic fights over money increasing in frequency and near violence in some cases." He reaffirmed his commitment to move out as soon as possible.

The end of March found ADF ennui-ridden:

"I have been feeling quite stagnant, creativity-wise...I mean, I know I have a lot on my plate right now

My Male to Female transition..

Cosplaying,

Trying to get a place to move in the summer,

Converting to Reform Judaism

Work and other life things

Am I taking on too much or what?

Shit, I really need to move out from My Mom's place -- I think I will greatly benefit being in the new environment (especially If I get my South Philly Location)And I miss being with John T_T

I am so frustrated right now

And desperate"

Things picked up in the start of April, as ADF was able to secure both better hours at Wawa and a court date for his name change. He picked a New Jersey court over a Philadelphia one because the former apparently offer a faster service, and also because :

“

I want my Old Name to be retired to the dustbin of history in my old State.

”

ADF made his first suicide attempt on the 10th April, the catalyst being his loss of $290 on public transport, in addition to his general money woes. In his own words:

I decided give my work a phone call when I got back home and inform them I wanted to kill myself and I asked them to call my mother about it

And there I was in the kitchen for two hours -- Sharpest knife I can find pointed towards my chest. Mom never called back to even see I was okay, My Work didn't call to even see I am still alive or whatever.

Someone did care though to make sure I am okay, And it wasn't my Dobe, John.

[Another DeviantArt user] talked me out of the idea of killing myself over AIM and Eventually, Over the phone --- Within 20 minutes I did find strength to put my knife away."

The following day he made an unexpected attempt to rebuild bridges with Kourine, posting an impassioned apology for his previous poor behaviour towards her. She does not appear to have responded.

May-August 2010 - Collapse of the Love Quest, and Other Setbacks

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Ahuviya Harel made official.

On May 3rd ADF threatened to report his workplace to the State for what he viewed as their violations of Philadelphia's Fair Practices Ordinances. He wished to have his name changed to Ahuviya on Wawa's official records immediately, and was unwilling to wait the four days it would take for the Court to grant his name change. He, of course, did not follow through on this. His name change was granted on the 7th May.

While this was going on, ADF's relationship with John was deteriorating rapidly. "Lee," an ex-boyfriend of John's, had come back into his life in late April. John rebuffed his advances and Lee made a weak attempt to commit suicide outside John's house. I remember there being a picure of this? They parted company but, shortly after this, John began to develop the symptoms of MRSA and concluded that Lee had given it to him on an occasion they had had sex prior to John meeting ADF. John posted this on his DeviantArt page, where ADF saw it. On 11th May, John informed the world that "somebody" had left the following note at his house while he was out:

"After my Psychiatrist Appointment up at [Removed by John], I am coming over to talk to you About Lee and whether or not if you want any future relationship with me.

I do not tolerate cheaters,

[Removed by John]."

To this, John replied on his DeviantArt journal:

"Why would I want to talk to you about Lee? Do you think I want a relationship with him? I don't want to be in a relationship with anyone.

I just want to be friends.

I always just wanted to be friends, with him and with you.

In case you have not figured it out, let me put it to you clearly. Lee and I are dead. We are no more than walking dead waiting to fall over and decay."

Later that same day, John posted this update:

"DO NOT STOP BY MY HOUSE WITHOUT MY CONSENT.

I DO NOT LIKE UNEXPECTED VISITORS, NOR SHOULD YOU BE BOTHERING THE ONLY PERSON WILLING TO TAKE CARE OF ME AS I AM NO LONGER ABLE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF!"

Around an hour later, ADF responded on his own DeviantArt:

"Terrible News I Need to Report

About [John]

We are no longer seeing each other anymore

He does not want any relationship with me

And he does not even have the will to even live

In Addition, He is dying of Methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus - MRSA

MRSA is a flesh eating disease that is resistant to most classes of antibiotics

John contracted MRSA after sleeping with another man I did not know was living with him (Named Lee) only a scant two weeks after meeting me on 11/12 August 2009

[Some links to John’s photos of his condition, now lost]

So John is Dying of MRSA

And He does not want to put me through any suffering seeing him

that is why we broke up."

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ADF's second and final note to John.

John retorted that he was not dying, and claimed that he and ADF had never been dating. Later that same day John left his house again and returned to find another note left for him. This time he helpfully posted a picture of it. He went on to comment:

"First, Lee's name is not Lee.

Second, I am not dating Lee, nor was I ever. I was SLEEPING with Lee. I was never sleeping with YOU!

Third, Play you? If I wanted to play you, I would have asked you to buy me things or for CASH. This is what players do, I know. I used to a player. I have never ask you for ANYTHING.

Fourth, I NEVER SAID I WANTED TO BE MORE THAN FRIENDS.

Fifth, IF YOU COME TO MY HOUSE AGAIN I WILL ASK YOU TO LEAVE.

Sixth, IF YOU DO NOT LEAVE, I WILL CALL THE POLICE.

Seventh, I TOOK YOUR NAME AND OTHER UNIQUELY IDENTIFYING THINGS OF THIS NOTE. I DID THIS BECAUSE I MEAN YOU NO HARM. IF YOU CONTINUE LIKE THIS MY NEXT JOURNAL ENTRY WILL NAME YOU.

IF YOU KNOW THIS PERSON, PLEASE ASK THEM TO LEAVE ME ALONE!"

They never spoke again (at least, not on DeviantArt). The next day, ADF announced that his sexual interest in men was over and that he was a "Female Lesbian Trapped in a Male's Body," and posted a new poll on his DeviantArt page: “In light of Recent Events with me - Do you think Transphobia exists with Gay Men?” Both John and ADF deleted their posts about the affair a few days later. A few days after that, ADF announced he was now in a relationship with "Sarah." After this post she was never mentioned again.

ADF's Sasuke fixation made a brief re-appearance in June. In the middle of that month he attended the "Philadelphia Dyke March," in cosplay as {Sakura?}. He was caught on camera at this event {video source?}

In July he briefly wondered if he was, in fact, intersex. He entertained the idea for a couple of months but eventually dismissed it. His first appointment with a doctor regarding his planned sex change was scheduled for sometime in early July, but the doctor was forced to cancel it due to a family emergency. It was re-scheduled for 4th August but the delay plunged ADF into despair and he expressed a desire to "start looking on the streets for Extra-Legal/Illegal Grey or Black Market Estrogen and Spironolactone." He of course did not follow through with this. He commented later that day:

"I AM NOT A FAKE TRANSSEXUAL

The Hormones are essential to the legitimacy of my existence as a woman

Simple as that

Wars have been fought over access to resources

Estrogen is a resource I need access to continue living

I WILL FIGHT ONE GOD DAMN WAR IF I HAVE TO FOR IT!"

Later that same day(!), presumably still aggrieved by whoever suggested he was a fake transsexual, he posted a long chronology of his life where he highlighted all the events which he felt suggested that he had always been transgender. {Drop-down box for this}

CHRONOLOGY OF MY GENDER IDENTITY ISSUES

1985 - PRESENT

By Ahuviya R. Harel

1985-1996 - Pre-Puberty Development and Early Issues

12 August 1985 - Birth of Ahuviya Harel, then born as Felipe V. Delicias at Underwood Memorial Hospital, Woodbury, New Jersey. Gender Marker was assigned Male despite being born as an XXY Chromosonally Intersex Male

Ca. July - October 1987 - First Attempts at Toliet-Training Fail as my Father tries to force me to stand up and urinate -- First disgust and disdain complaints over my Male genitals are aired and subsequently ignored by both parents. This further hinders further Toilet-Training efforts until Spring 1989

Ca. January 1988 - February 1991 - Escalating Domestic Violence between my Mother and Father. Escalating violence by my Father causes me to be in counseling and to desire to be closer to my Mother. First complaints of being Male occur as a result of the violence and physical abuse by my father

April 1988 - Received inaccurate diagonsis of Autism Spectrum Disorder known as Asperger Syndrome (which was not officially recognized as a Mental Disorder until the publication of the DSM-IV-TR in 1994 and will be depreciated under Autism upon the publication of the DSM-V in 2012) I also receive the more 'accurate and No Shit Sherlock' dianogsis of "Emotional Disturbance"

September 1988 - June 1991 - Attented Preschool at Woodbury Heights Grammar School, Woodbury Heights - I was placed in Special Education Classes. I was described as having no interest in peers during Lunch and Recess

Ca. 1989-1990 - Repeated incidents of using the Girls Room in Preschool and Refusing to use the boys room in Preschool

September 1991 - March 1992 - Attended Parkview Elementary School, Westville, New Jersey. I was expelled due to repeated fighting and trashing of the classroom. I finished Kindergarten with a Home Tutor by June 1992. The violence was a reflection of the physical abuse I suffered from my Father

September 1992 - August 2000 - Attended Durand Academy for my Primary Education

25 November 1992 - Disney's Aladdin in released, spawning my first cosplay as Jafar in 1993, also the first ideations on being female asre expressed when wanting to be Princess Jasmine

25 December 1992 - Received my first Bicycle - I refused to ride the bike due to the seat causing pain to my male genitalia and prostate. I have not rode a Bicycle since then.

Summer 1993 - Visitations with my Father are started. Attempts to Learn Baseball and Basketball end in repeated failures. However I excel in Roller Skating and Hockey when given the oppurtunity to play and to such sports.

Ca. Fall 1993 - First interests in cartography (Map-making) occur, a unisex interest that persists to the persent day.

12 August 1994 - Recieved Kitty-Kitty Kittens as my first 'girls toy' for my 9th Birthday

September 1994 - April 1995 - Attended CCD Classes at St. Matthew's School, National Park NJ

Summer and Fall 1995 - I experience the first sustained series of ideations of being female in my dreams

August 1996 - Received Dollhouse for my 11th Birthday - Another Girl toy since Kitty Kitty Kittens from 1994

A Chronology of my Gender Identity IssuesPart 1 - 1985-1996

Just to prove that I am not faking this Transgender stuff

It is real for me

Shortly after this he began getting into slap-fights with other transgender DeviantArt users he felt were too supportive of the gender binary.

This seems to have marked the point when ADF began to distance himself from the mainstream LGBT community, of which he had previously regarded himself as an enthusiastic member. He took people's scepticism towards the legitimacy of his transgender status as evidence that the community is close-minded and intolerant, willing to disregard its less conventional members in its desire to secure mainstream acceptability. This disillusionment would become particularly emphatic when he began combining it with his quasi-communist beliefs later in the year.

Money arguments with his mother picked up again in July, over the cost of cosplay and of various items ADF regarded as necessary for his new transgender identity. At the time, ADF was also encountering issues at work, having his hours cut and having personal difficulties with colleagues he felt were unsupportive of his transgender status. He came to believe that leaving Wawa would be necessary for his life as a transgender to flourish. His mother however despaired of his ability to find a new job if he quit at Wawa, and feared that with him unemployed they would be able to make rent on their house. One encounter went as follows:

"[She was] crying and freaking out to me and saying its my fault I am transitioning and may make her homeless (She doesn't say 'us' , no she only says her because...either that's was a Freudian slip on her part or she does not see me as a part of the family these days) Also, It said I didn't have proof yet I filed for Unemployment compensation yet (which I did not get around to doing yet because there was a fucking anime convention called INOCHICON last weekend1)"

Her entreaties fell on deaf ears, however, as he quit his job anyway.

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ADF triumphantly displays his first hormones

The doctor's appointment mentioned above finally rolled around, and ADF was given the all-clear to start on hormones at the end of August. It should be noted that ADF later described this doctor as being part of "a LGBT clinic which runs on a Informed Consent Model with Hormones - I totally bypassed the WPATH Standards of Care Requirements this way." He made enquiries into several possible new jobs, without success.

On 30th August he flatly declared, "I AM SAKURA HARUNO."

August-December 2010 - Sudden Conversion to Communism

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ADF as China.

On August 12th ADF made the life-changing decision to order the Axis Powers Hetalia China costume.. It arrived quickly, around a week later, and ADF immediately took photos of himself wearing it. In case any civilians reading this article need a quick explanation: Axis Powers Hetalia was a manga and anime which was very prominent in yaoi fandom circles c. 2009-2011. The characters were personifications of various countries, generally presented as cute anime guys in military uniforms. Imagine basically an anime version of Polandball, without the balls (and without the humour). Being a Japanese work, the characterisations of the countries relied in many cases on different stereotypes the western reader would be familiar with: the China character was depicted as being generally cheery and upbeat, with delusions of grandeur and occasional serious moments. The anime was set, vaguely, around the time of World War II, and modern politics were touched on very lightly. Communist aspects of the China character were rarely, if at all, mentioned. Can any of our gay anime fans advise as to how accurate this is? Hetalia passed me by almost completely at the time.

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A more serious picture.

ADF essentially became a communist overnight based on this costume. While this may seem a slightly facile explanation, the reader will realise by now that ADF at the time was highly suggestible, and with a track record of making drastic alterations to his persona to fit in with his current anime role models. On the 21st he suddenly declared he was now a Socialist, having previously never suggested holding any politics further out than the centre-Left, and just over a week later he went full communist, Quoth he:

“

EVERYONE IS EQUAL - Race, Ethnicity, Religion, Sex, Sexuality, Gender Identity and expression - This is freedom you will never see if you settle for Capitalism, or from a broken two-party system, or from Human Rights Campaign and the Gay Bourgeois that dominate a corporate controlled media in this country.

”

He immediately went all-in on the communist aesthetic: luxuriating in the Soviet visual language of red stars, hammers & sickles, etc. Actual substantive political content was much rarer, aside from vague blasts against capitalism, the "gay bourgeoisie" (whom he viewed as being essentially in league with the capitalists) and so on. It should be noted that he did not "become" China in the way he "became" Sasuke or Sakura previously: he made regular posts in the idiom of the China character (as well as many in a stereotypical communist idiom, with frequent references to struggles, gulags, etc.) but he continued to sign off as Sakura. Sakura essentially served as his "personal" persona while communism became a parallel "political" persona.

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ADF proves he was, in fact, a Marxist all along.

ADF was challenged on the suddenness of his turn to communism, people immediately noting it took place very shortly after the China costume arrived. ADF would have none of this, and claimed that, in fact, he had been a communist all along. His sole item of evidence was an essay he claimed to have written for college in 2006: a clunky Marxist analysis of a Langston Hughes poem. He later supplied another timeline, this purporting to be proof he had really been a communist the whole time. We can wonder how much of this was massaged in retrospect.

Despite the above political transformation, ADF's personal life was actually fairly quiet at the time. He took his hormones regularly and stayed out of trouble. He kept up with his Judaism, observing Yom Kippur in September. He got a volunteering job at the William Way Centre, an LGBT community centre in Philadelphia, and hoped to pick up a full-time paying job by the end of the year.

ADF got the idea of wanting to come out to his father as transgender. This would obviously be tricky: his father lives in New Jersey and at the time ADF raised the issue they had not spoken for, by his reckoning, nine years. Furthermore, he was anxious about seeing him again after the "Physical and Sexual abuse" he had allegedly inflicted on him. On the 23rd October he claimed that he traveled to New Jersey to meet his father, and that his father was accepting of him, despite ADF having arrived to the rendezvous in his China costume(!). Buoyed by this success, ADF decided that it was time to have a rapprochement and to build a new relationship with him.

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Typical art of the period.

The love quest began again in October, ADF in "China" mode now expressing a desire for "A RUSSIA FOR A LOVER." A Naruto would be fine, too. He had already found a potential candidate:

"I have someone in one of my Trans support groups who seems interested in me. She's a Genderqueer Female who does really like me, and she would make a wonderful Uzumaki NarutoI would sit next to her and she would pet my right hand (even when I have my gloves on)I mean we are only just friends but I see something happening soon with her -- I just do not know yet and can't say and won't say until I am certain -- its just flirting for now IDKWe will see if this Dobe is real.

The trans support group ADF referred to was his second: he had already parted company with the William Way Centre because, as he put it, "the elders of the group were not taking me seriously as a legitimate member of their community." He relocated to the Mazzoni Centre, also in Philadelphia.

Money issues unfortunately raised their head again as the year came to a close. ADF decided to take decisive action and move forward his planned moving-out date to 31st December 2010 because "my transition is causing immense financial strain on my Mom's household - to the point of food and fuel shortages." His continued employment did not help matters. He was, however, at pains to point out that:

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Casual ADF, October 18, 2010.

"The blame does not rest solely on me for what is causing this need to move.

My Mother and Her Boyfriend are also to blame more -- their inability to ease the economic situation by not being able to combine their separate households by moving in with each otherGod forbid you ever propose telling a White Heterosexual American Male to give up the idea of private property."

He planned to move to different quarter of Philadelphia where apparently some trans-friendly cheap housing could be found.

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ADF quoting himself.

In December he posted a list of his best "personal quotes," most of which he had never said before. Some highlights:

"Those that do not miss the former male me do not have a heart, and those who want the former male me back do not have a brain." [Adapted from a Putin remark about the USSR]

"As someone who lost her job three months ago due to anti-LGBT discrimination, I am dying for some Whoopass!"

"Gender is not black or white ---- its entire spectrum, go explore it. Have my gender deviations taught you anything this year?"

"Male Pronouns are Punishable by Deportation to Labor Camps in Siberia"

"There is a ghost lurking in the LGBT Community amongst us, it walks around, and no one talks about it, yet everyone knows what it is -- This ghost is a terrible ghost and is responsible for Homophobia, Biphobia and Transphobia, and this ghost that divides our community into competing factions and petty bickering even within those factions...This ghost is Capitalism."

"CAN YOU GUYZ STOP SENDING ME YOUR FARMVILLE SPAM -- I DO NOT PLAY BOURGEOISIE KIDDIE GAMES ON FACEBOOK"

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As 2010 comes to a close, ADF sums up the last couple years.

He spent Christmas eve with his mother and her boyfriend, dressed as Sakura, and Christmas at the William Way Centre (having, presumably, made peace with them). He claimed to have grown somewhat weary of Christmas, describing it as a "cruel greed-fueled over-commercialized Capitalist profit power play for the Retail Mall Economies of the West."

To be continued.............

In 2015, Ahuviya became an anti-Semite and changed his name to Isabel Rosa Araujo, but actually threatened suicide when Facebook wouldn't let him change it.